I’ve been uncharacteristically withdrawn from social media this week. Triggered by all the intense images I see… Reluctant to mark myself “safe” cuz that doesn’t even seem like a thing… Embarrassed to reach out since I can’t stop sobbing, even when all I’ve personally lost is my manicure… Scared to leave the house cuz what if it’s not there when I get back… Self-judgement knowing that’s unreasonable… Heartbroken for those that’s happened to… Exhausted by the constant alerts and helicopters and sirens… Averse to leaving town cuz I’m just not ready to rip all your #Pepper pictures off the walls, unless… it were to come to that. I can’t even go there in my mind. I have never experienced fear like this. Regardless of how this eventually ends, your friends in LA are gonna need therapy (and some juicy, pathos-filled roles to exorcize all these emotions).

#photoby Mike Mekash c/o AFX Studio #ilovela #currentmood #americanhorrorstory